In a previous post, I touched on the topic of patiently waiting for that elusive relationship built on trust and respect. Recently, someone inquired about what I desired in a relationship, and my response, while seemingly straightforward, carries its fair share of complexity and contradictions. I yearn for my own “Knight in Shining Armor,” yet I don’t perceive myself as dependent on a provider or in need of saving. I have a Savior in my life already, though our current rapport isn’t at its best – but that’s a tale for another time. Today, I wish to delve into the things I long for in a relationship and ponder whether they’re mere fantasies.
Can these desires truly exist in reality? Join me as I indulge in some daydreaming about the qualities I’d like to experience in a relationship. I’m aware that this list might not be exhaustive, and it’s likely influenced by romance novels and movies. Nevertheless, here it goes: I aspire to have the kind of relationship that prompts onlookers to think, “Wow, they genuinely love each other” when they see us together. I want those moments when our gazes lock across the room, and we intuitively understand each other’s thoughts. I yearn for times when I’m at the stove, and his arms encircle me, causing us to forget about cooking as we turn off the stove. I long for cozy, rainy days spent intertwined in bed, snuggling. I crave receiving a midday phone call instructing me to arrange care for the dog and pack a bag. I want to be the person he turns to when celebrating successes or when things go awry. I envision us writing heartfelt poems to one another. I aspire to be best friends while still encouraging one another to maintain friendships outside of our partnership. I want to feel cherished, desired, and loved. I hope we’re mature enough to agree to disagree and resolve conflicts before bedtime. Essentially, I desire my knight in shining armor, my prince charming, my soulmate, my other half.
So, can this cherished fantasy genuinely exist in the real world? If you were to inquire about my prayer today, I’d respond: “Let me find my partner; they don’t need to be flawless, but they must love me. OR Help me to accept that these idea’s are mere fantasies’ and stuff that dreams are made of.”